I have a problem with him and its upsetting me. I have a special case of Depression.
You see, when I was a kid I was on medicine for some tics and after I stopped it abruptly, I suffered a severe withdrawal that left me emotionally numb and mentally slower after I was on the medicine. It was Prozac. Later when I began masturbating, I have worsened it and my symptoms got worse and I developed new symptoms such as impotence, memory problems, confusion, irritability, insomnia, and many more.
But you see, he doesn't believe me! Wtf. He thinks its all in my head! He thinks I make these problems by making myself emotionless and blocking out memories to block out whatever I don't like. It is true partially I think. I think I do avoid some problems. But the physical problems are true too! This stuff is different than conventional science knows but it is true! SSRIs sometimes do make you emotionally numb. Withdrawals sometimes last years. You can find people who were brain damaged from these drugs indefinitely. It is also known very well in the east, and by some doctors and people in the west that masturbation can mess up your health! Other people say they were tired and confused from masturbating and some doctors knew it too.
He says get doctor's evidence. But how can I do that when all Psychiatry is nothing but an assumption? There is no neurotransmitter test and doctors prescribe medicine without testing anyone. Its all behavioral. When I KNOW this was caused physically and I did NOT seek problems then. If he doesn't believe me it will hurt my therapy. Its upsetting enough he doesn't believe me. These things are just not measured! But I am telling you IT IS ALL TRUE. When I was on Wellbutrin, which of course as a kid I was forced right after Prozac, I did feel better. I didn't care then either. I just wanted to get away from it all by following everything people said. Yes I have some psychological issues, but that doesn't mean I don't have real physical-caused (brain) mental health issues. I am gonna ask my Psychiatrist to tell my Psychotherapist its true. She has to tell him that!
Every day I struggle to get out of bed and there must be a physical issue in it! I have had that my whole life and it only got worse since I got that withdrawal. I know when I accidentally did things like warm myself up or get out of bed earlier or drink more a day, my health improved. I did not bring it out. It was accidental findings. It is all physically connected. And also I did not believe this for years but then I found out. After ignoring it for years I remembered what happened. There is just no way its all in my head. Such severity. Omg. This therapy will not help if my Psychotherapist does not believe me. If you look into it, you will KNOW it is all true! Its rare but these things happen you know. It IS rare someone will have post-SSRI long problems. Is IS rare masturbation can damage you. But IT HAPPENS. And if I will ever get that healing done, I will need someone who understands me at least but better is one who truly knows this.
Please help me!











